Prisoner for God: Letters and Papers from Prison (1953), by D. Bonhoeffer
Review by Orrin Judd

Included in the collection of Dietrich Bonhoeffer's prison writings
are two poems that it appears he must have written at Tegel Prison in Berlin
in mid-July 1944, around the mid-point of his doomed imprisonment (April
1943 to April 1945).  The first is justifiably famous, expressing
as it does Bonhoeffer's own strange and strained relationship to his pending
martyrdom :

    WHO AM I?

    Who am I? They often tell me

    I would step from my cellís confinement

    calmly, cheerfully, firmly,

    like a squire from his country-house.

    Who am I? They also tell me

    I would talk to my warders

    freely and friendly and clearly,

    as though it were mine to command.

    Who am I? They also tell me

    I would bear the days of misfortune

    equably, smilingly, proudly,

    like one accustomed to win.

    Am I then really all that which other men tell of?

    Or am I only what I myself know of myself,

    restless and longing and sick, like a bird in a cage,

    struggling for breath, as though hands were compressing my throat,

    yearning for colors, for flowers, for the voices of birds,

    thirsting for words of kindness, for neighborliness,

    trembling with anger at despotisms and petty humiliation,

    tossing in expectation of great events,

    powerlessly trembling for friends at an infinite distance,

    weary and empty at praying, at thinking, at making,

    faint, and ready to say farewell to it all?

    Who am I? This or the other?

    Am I one person today, and tomorrow another?

    Am I both at once? A hypocrite before others,

    and before myself a contemptibly woebegone weakling?

    Or is something within me still like a beaten army,

    fleeing in disorder from victory already achieved?

    Who am I? They mock me, these lonely questions of mine.

    Whoever I am, thou knowest, O God, I am thine.

What makes this so affecting is that he tells us of the doubts and terrors
that afflicted him, yet we know of the eerie serenity and equanimity with 
which he mounted the scaffold to face his own hanging.

It seems though that the other poem he wrote at this time is less well
known, and it strikes me as somewhat more pertinent to our times (after
all, hopefully there are few of us who will ever face the situation that
he did) :

    CHRISTIANS AND UNBELIEVERS

    Men go to God when they are sore bestead,

    Pray to him for succour, for his peace, for bread,

    For mercy for them sick, sinning or dead:

    All men do so, Christian and unbelieving.

    Men go to God when he is sore bestead,

    Find him poor and scorned, without shelter or bread,

    Whelmed under weight of the wicked, the weak, the dead:

    Christians stand by God in his hour of grieving.

    God goeth to every man when sore bestead,

    Feedeth body and spirit with his bread,

    For Christians, heathens alike he hangeth dead:

    And both alike forgiving.

In a letter of July 18, 1944, Bonhoeffer offered his own analysis of
the ideas he was trying to develop in these verses.  He explained
to his correspondent :

    The poem about Christians and Unbelievers embodies
an idea you will recognize: 'Christians range themselves with God in his
suffering;

    that is what distinguishes them from the heathen.'  
As Jesus asked in Gethsemane, 'Could ye not watch with me one hour?' 
That is the

    exact opposite of what the religious man expects
from God.  Man is challenged to participate in the sufferings of God
at the hands of

    a godless world.
    He must therefore plunge himself into the life of
a godless world, without attempting to gloss over its ungodliness with
a veneer of

    religion or trying to transfigure it.  He must
live a 'worldly' life and so participate in the suffering of God. 
He may live a worldly life

    as one emancipated from all false religions and
obligations.  To be a Christian does not mean to be religious in a
particular way, to

    cultivate some particular form of asceticism (as
a sinner, a penitent or a saint), but to be a man.  It is not some
religious act which

    makes a Christian what he is, but participation
in the suffering of God in the life of the world.

This is particularly stern stuff for us, who live in an age when religion
has pretty much been reduced to a glorified self-help program, a sickeningly
shallow way to feel good about ourselves.  Even the Christians are
now heathens, interested in God only for what He can do for them. 
As one of the lessons of Bonhoeffer's life and death is the power of faith
to quiet a tumultuous soul when events oppress us, so must another be that
the experience of God is not a oneway street, where we take, take, take. 
He does not exist merely to comfort us and heal our petty personal wounds,
like some sanctified version of Deepak Chopra.  Our approach towards
Him serves also, perhaps more importantly, to understand something of the
world as it must appear to Him--with billions of souls, besides our own,
beset on all sides by sin, crying out for help.

When Bonhoeffer spoke of a godless world he meant something to the effect
that God is not an immediate presence to be turned to when we have problems,
as He had seemed in earlier times, but that instead we must learn to help
ourselves.  Mightn't we also say that the world is godless in the
sense that we are not willing to participate in the suffering of others
in the here and now, but are so consumed with the self that we seek only
an escape of some kind from this reality?  Bonhoeffer summoned us
to live in this world, filled as it is with sin and wickedness, rather
than to pine for the next, to lift our gaze from our own navels and to
see and feel the suffering of others around us.  It is a summons we
still choose not to hear.

Bonhoeffer tried to end his letter on a hopeful note, but the final
lines are heartbreaking :

    When we speak of God in a non-religious way, we must
not gloss over the ungodliness of the world, but expose it in a new light.

    Now that it has come of age, the world is more godless,
and perhaps it is for that very reason nearer to God than ever before.
    Forgive me putting it all so clumsily and badly. 
... We have to get up nearly every night at 1:30, which is not very good
for work

    like this.

Maybe Bonhoeffer was right in this, one of his central ideas, and the
world is godless because mankind and the world have come
of age and we must push God away and stand on our own as if He did
not exist.  But our continuing focus on ourselves to the exclusion
of everything else certainly seems more the mark of an infantile culture
than a mature one.  If God is nigh, surely it is not because we have
done anything to deserve it; witness what was done to this thoughtful,
decent man.
 

© 2003